Lyme Labels

Hello, my name is Jennifer. I have chronic Lyme, and life is pretty good.

Just those few words will hit many the wrong way. For the naysayers I am identifying with my disease, fishing for sympathy, whatever….

For those suffering much worse right now there might be bitterness, frustration, desperation and anger.

I’ve been there.

I think the reason I’m writing this at all right now (and as I’ve come more and more out of the dark over the years to become more of a median Lymie), I find I write less and less. So am I leaving a void? Is there something to say from the place in the middle? From time to time there is, and I try to make my infrequent blog posts deep and meaningful. But right now I’m thinking of this 🤢 disease itself, not so much the emotional and spiritual sides that I often focus on.

There seems to be such a myriad of levels to this Lyme thing; and symptoms and severity of those symptoms seems to be as numerous as registered dog breeds in the AKC. I don’t think I’m exaggerating.

So as I read so many well-written blogs, articles, essays and information from people on their Lyme journeys I sometimes see a gap from those middlin’/getting by, but not dying Lymies, like me. I don’t feel at this point I suffer enough to write regularly. I feel I don’t have a right to complain when I know compared to so many I really have nothing to complain about.

Why am I writing here? I don’t know. Maybe I’m just reaching out into the void to say hi to those who live every day with an I.I. (Invisible illness). To those who “look fine”, and maybe even act fine most of the time. But that live with:

An amount of daily pain

Never feel rested

Feel like life is a treadmill you can never get off

Know that Brain fog and inflammation are the new black

Not being able to eat that

Not having a full set of spoons

Being supplement/medication/protocol broke

A degree of loneliness

I hope if you are here you’ve been able to carve out a decent life for yourself. That you have healthy emotional acceptance of where you are, but that you also haven’t stopped fighting. I raise a glass of something alcohol, sugar, and yeast free to my fighters in green!

Hi. My name is Jennifer. I’m a functional Lymie. Life is good, and so is God.

I’m still fighting 💚

Double Chocolate Paleo Scones

Double Chocolate Paleo Scones

I thought I would throw my own offering into the paleo baked goods recipe pool by giving a shot at creating my own. I got inspired to create a paleo version of a chocolate gluten-free scone made by a local coffee shop here in North Idaho that makes excellent GF chocolate scones. But alas they use a traditional GF flour which still includes grains like rice and tapioca. GF flours can also often use legumes.

For those of us following the AIP with autoimmune issues and grain sensitivities, these are still a no-no. 😕

Another challenge I have with many paleo recipes is many use almond flour, and almonds for me are a high allergen. That plus many AIP’s can’t/shouldn’t eat nuts…

Not that any recipe is perfect for all people, but hopefully this chocolatey cakey scone recipe will be useful and yummy to some of my fellow AIP/Autoimmune/Lymie/Mast Cell/Histamine/“_______” friends out there ♥️. Gotta say I think these are a success 😋

Preheat oven to 350.

1 cup coconut flour

1 cup cacao powder

1 tsp baking soda

1 tsp salt

1/4 tsp baking powder

1/2 tsp cardamom (optional)

1 tsp vanilla

1 cup organic vegetable shortening

1 cup organic honey

8 organic eggs (from hens not fed corn or soy)

1 cup organic chocolate chips (soy-free)

Mix dry ingredients well, add wet ingredients until well integrated, then stir in chocolate chips.

Place batter drop style on parchment lined cookie sheets and bake for 12-18 minutes depending on size. Use toothpick if unsure of doneness.

GF

Paleo

Vegetarian

Eat in moderation, not a low calorie, low fat or low sugar food 😉

The Reason Wheat Is Still Killing You Even If You’re Glutenfree, And It’s Not What You Think

Here is a radical paradigm shift in how we think of grains that the food industry doesn’t want you to know.
I am horrified that even gluten-free and organic wheat (and some other grains) won’t save us from killing ourselves. Ready for this?
——–>. The Truth Behind Why Grains Are Killing Us

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Turmeric Ice Cream

On my way home from work I suddenly got a craving for turmeric ice cream. I have been making myself turmeric tea a few times a week (with some slight modifications): http://nourishedkitchen.com/golden-tea-turmeric-ginger-tea-coconut-milk/     So I thought making ice cream would be no big deal…and it turned out great!!

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Image  2 pieces fresh raw turmeric (about 1 1/2 inches long)

Image 1 piece fresh cut raw ginger (about 1/2 inch long)

Image 1 1/2 cups unsweetened almond milk

At this point put the above ingredients in your Vitamix (or comparable blender) and blend on high until turmeric and ginger are annihilated. Pour liquid through a fine mesh strainer to get rid of any sediment, then pour liquid back into blender and add:

Image 1/3 cup organic full fat coconut milk

Image 8 packets truvia

Image  1 dropper liquid stevia

Image small sprinkle salt

Image 1 Tablespoon unflavored gelatin

Image 1/4 teaspoon guar gum

Image 1 tablespoon manuka honey

Blend everything together and pour liquid into your ice cream maker  Image

Run machine until you have ice cream!

Discouragement in the Midst of Healing

So it is days like today that remind me with a hard slap that I am still sick. Even though my horrible energy slump is getting better and I am doing some more things my body is still in a constant state of anger and intense inflammation.
I whine a lot on this blog about my water retention, but no joke my legs and butt look like fat suit Gwyneth Paltrow in Shallow Hal. I am very serious about this, it may be a downsized version but same effect. I carry around enough water that if I change directions too fast my thighs may end up at the other end of the compass than I am facing….
Okay, I know that was a lot of whining. So even though I am super strict with my diet I am thinking I need to get downright aggressive, meaning not even having those few times a month when I have a bite of this, a bite of that, because my body is just angry, can’t detox properly, can’t methylate, has poor circulation, and obviously has a great affinity for H2O.
I am by default with all my restrictions paleo+ , meaning I take it way beyond the basic paleo diet with restrictions, but I am considering looking into the GAPS diet and seeing what that is all about and really focus on gut healing.
Ok, that is all the energy I have for tonight. Tomorrow I resume the Lyme/Candida/Leaky Gut/Mold Biotoxicity/Methylation Defect…etc fight.

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Yummy Evening Treat Invention

I love persimmons! I have always enjoyed them this time of year. Although I am mostly fruit-free right now I am allowing myself to have my favorite fruit.

So here is tonight’s fall time warm and spicy treat invention:

Warm Persimmon Spice Yogurt

1 large fuyu persimmon peeled and cubed
3/4 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp cardamom
1/2 dropper liquid stevia in English toffee flavor (Sweet Drops)
2-3 packets truvia
1/2 tsp butterscotch flavor (Frontier all natural)
3/4 cup goat milk yogurt (plain unsweetened)

Put prepared persimmon in microwave safe bowl with the spices and sweetener. Microwave for about a minute and a half to two minutes (persimmon will create its own moisture as it cooks).
Add butterscotch flavor and goat milk and stir.
Sweet and spicy, warm and creamy!

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Evening Treat

Was hankering for something chocolate and creamy on my way home from work.
I had seen a chocolate mousse recipe made with avocado earlier in the day, so I thought I would just wing it with my own..

1/2 avocado
4 tablespoons cocoa powder
3 packets truvia
1/2 dropper liquid chocolate stevia
1 cup goat milk kefir
3 ice cubes
1 tablespoon unflavored gelatin
(Okay so I ended up going for more of a frozen yogurt)
Stuck it all in the Vitamix and stuck it in the freezer. Would have been better if I had the patience to let it set, even so my 1/2 frozen yogurt 1/2 chocolate soup was still tangy, creamy, chocolaty and delicious.

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The Battle Rages On….Fatigue, Ice Cream and Viruses!

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I have had a really rough 4-6 weeks of fatigue and poor willpower…
Fatigue goes along with Lyme anyway, but besides that I think I have had a few nutritional deficiencies sneaking up on me, plus my immune system has been battling whatever viruses are going around, this all adds up to extra fatigue. So what that partially means for me is food cravings combined with weakened will power, that lead to diet cheats that make me feel worse, ugh!
So what happens in those terribly weak “I can’t carry on” moments is that I am tired, so I want to eat for energy, which usually doesn’t do me much good. Also I tell myself “darn it you deserve it!”, or “normal people can eat this stuff and you are getting better, so you have a right to!” or “I know I felt horrible when I ate that last time, but that was a while ago, maybe you are better now” or “I don’t care how I feel tomorrow I have a right to enjoy that right now!”. Many other conversations and excuses go on in my head. The problem is when I am of sound mind and not feeling weak and horrible I can combat food cravings with knowledge and logic, but when the brains is fuzzy and the body is tired that ice cream just seems so logical….

Today, right now this moment I am still battling ongoing fatigue and I feel a cold coming on with snifflies, chills and sore throat, and I want ice cream!!!

Now what I am asking from everyone reading this is to be my logical mind for me right now, because I have not been to Cold Stone Creamery in years, and they have this marshmallow ice cream right now….

But I am trying to reduce my inflammation, starve any candida, lose those last 20 pounds, not make myself sick for weeks after messing up…….but MARSHMALLOW ice cream! I don’t want to set myself up for failure and swell way up, and gain any weight, and (MARSHMALLOW ice cream!!!!).

Any of you deal with this tug of war????