Discouragement in the Midst of Healing

So it is days like today that remind me with a hard slap that I am still sick. Even though my horrible energy slump is getting better and I am doing some more things my body is still in a constant state of anger and intense inflammation.
I whine a lot on this blog about my water retention, but no joke my legs and butt look like fat suit Gwyneth Paltrow in Shallow Hal. I am very serious about this, it may be a downsized version but same effect. I carry around enough water that if I change directions too fast my thighs may end up at the other end of the compass than I am facing….
Okay, I know that was a lot of whining. So even though I am super strict with my diet I am thinking I need to get downright aggressive, meaning not even having those few times a month when I have a bite of this, a bite of that, because my body is just angry, can’t detox properly, can’t methylate, has poor circulation, and obviously has a great affinity for H2O.
I am by default with all my restrictions paleo+ , meaning I take it way beyond the basic paleo diet with restrictions, but I am considering looking into the GAPS diet and seeing what that is all about and really focus on gut healing.
Ok, that is all the energy I have for tonight. Tomorrow I resume the Lyme/Candida/Leaky Gut/Mold Biotoxicity/Methylation Defect…etc fight.

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Yummy Evening Treat Invention

I love persimmons! I have always enjoyed them this time of year. Although I am mostly fruit-free right now I am allowing myself to have my favorite fruit.

So here is tonight’s fall time warm and spicy treat invention:

Warm Persimmon Spice Yogurt

1 large fuyu persimmon peeled and cubed
3/4 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp cardamom
1/2 dropper liquid stevia in English toffee flavor (Sweet Drops)
2-3 packets truvia
1/2 tsp butterscotch flavor (Frontier all natural)
3/4 cup goat milk yogurt (plain unsweetened)

Put prepared persimmon in microwave safe bowl with the spices and sweetener. Microwave for about a minute and a half to two minutes (persimmon will create its own moisture as it cooks).
Add butterscotch flavor and goat milk and stir.
Sweet and spicy, warm and creamy!

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Evening Treat

Was hankering for something chocolate and creamy on my way home from work.
I had seen a chocolate mousse recipe made with avocado earlier in the day, so I thought I would just wing it with my own..

1/2 avocado
4 tablespoons cocoa powder
3 packets truvia
1/2 dropper liquid chocolate stevia
1 cup goat milk kefir
3 ice cubes
1 tablespoon unflavored gelatin
(Okay so I ended up going for more of a frozen yogurt)
Stuck it all in the Vitamix and stuck it in the freezer. Would have been better if I had the patience to let it set, even so my 1/2 frozen yogurt 1/2 chocolate soup was still tangy, creamy, chocolaty and delicious.

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The Battle Rages On….Fatigue, Ice Cream and Viruses!

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I have had a really rough 4-6 weeks of fatigue and poor willpower…
Fatigue goes along with Lyme anyway, but besides that I think I have had a few nutritional deficiencies sneaking up on me, plus my immune system has been battling whatever viruses are going around, this all adds up to extra fatigue. So what that partially means for me is food cravings combined with weakened will power, that lead to diet cheats that make me feel worse, ugh!
So what happens in those terribly weak “I can’t carry on” moments is that I am tired, so I want to eat for energy, which usually doesn’t do me much good. Also I tell myself “darn it you deserve it!”, or “normal people can eat this stuff and you are getting better, so you have a right to!” or “I know I felt horrible when I ate that last time, but that was a while ago, maybe you are better now” or “I don’t care how I feel tomorrow I have a right to enjoy that right now!”. Many other conversations and excuses go on in my head. The problem is when I am of sound mind and not feeling weak and horrible I can combat food cravings with knowledge and logic, but when the brains is fuzzy and the body is tired that ice cream just seems so logical….

Today, right now this moment I am still battling ongoing fatigue and I feel a cold coming on with snifflies, chills and sore throat, and I want ice cream!!!

Now what I am asking from everyone reading this is to be my logical mind for me right now, because I have not been to Cold Stone Creamery in years, and they have this marshmallow ice cream right now….

But I am trying to reduce my inflammation, starve any candida, lose those last 20 pounds, not make myself sick for weeks after messing up…….but MARSHMALLOW ice cream! I don’t want to set myself up for failure and swell way up, and gain any weight, and (MARSHMALLOW ice cream!!!!).

Any of you deal with this tug of war????

I Eat Good!

My chocolate cravings lately have been crazy! Admittedly it has caused a few slip ups…. 😦
But I just finished an amazing Chocolate Mint Milk Shake, delicious to the point of tasting like the full sugar nasty version, but it was totally diet friendly ( sugar-free, dairy-free, soy-free, gluten & grain-free )

1 1/2 cups unsweetened vanilla almond milk
2 very full tablespoons full fat canned coconut milk
4 tablespoons raw cacao powder
2 drops peppermint essential oil ( don’t use any more than that, this stuff is powerful!)
1/4 tap guar gum
1 tablespoon unflavored gelatin
Approximately 2 1/2 cups frozen cubed zucchini (or whatever is needed to thicken)
2 droppers liquid stevia
5 packets truvia
Stick it all in your powerful blender ( go Vitamix!)
Enjoy

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So What DO You Eat?….revisited

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So it has been a while since I posted any food from my uber strict diet. I am again prompted to post because I have been getting those questions again…”what DO you eat?”

For any newbies I am gluten-free, grain-free, dairy-free, sugar-free, soy-free, starch-free, …no processed foods or anything artificial.
So for tonight I am eating
Zucchini Coconut Flour bread (yum!)
With chimichurri, egg, and gingered carrots

Yummy Evening Treat

Invented a delicious night time latte;

Chamomile Latte

Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk
2 bags chamomile tea
Vanilla liquid stevia
Egg Nog Ice Chips. (http://www.vitaminlife.com/product-exec/PNAME/Hand-Crafted-Candy-Tin-Egg-Nog/product_id/72267?gcsct=0ChMIgKW_nvrguQIVxk3mCh05HAAAEAA)

A great treat on a restricted diet

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I Have Lyme, So Why Do I Have To Avoid Gluten, Dairy & Sugar?

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I must saying being gluten-free, grain-free, starch-free, sugar-free, dairy-free, soy-free, nightshade-free, nut-free (except almonds), has made ALL the difference in both my healing and symptoms. Especially if you (like most Lyme sufferers) are also dealing with chronic candida, and then in turn Leaky Gut (compromised intestinal permeability).

Read this great post!

http://www.tiredoflyme.com/diet.html#.UhY8ED-NFFd

Blueberry Cardamom Smoothie

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So good news! I have been fruit-free for a while due to chronic candida and over active autoimmune response, but my doctor told me I could add blueberries back into my diet. My response, create new smoothie recipe:

1 1/2 cups unsweetened almond milk vanilla or regular
Approximately 2-3 cups cubed frozen zucchini
1/2 pint blueberries
3 packets Truvia (or to taste)
2 droppers liquid stevia (or to taste)
1/2 tsp cardamom
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1 tbsp maca powder
1 scoop whey powder (pure unsweetened)
Natural unsweetened plain gelatin for thickness (optional)
Blend!