Leaning When You Can’t Stand

This quote struck me today; it is (yet another) brilliant quote from Mark Twain.

God is speaking to me through words from an atheist! He really can use everything and everyone for His purposes.

I struggle greatly with discipline when it comes to my illness; partly due to self control, and partly due to fatigue and malaise that make it hard to organize my supplement protocol and successfully prepare a meal regimen, not cheat on my diet, on top of working….

Yes I have fatigue and fog and physical pain to fall back on as an excuse, but how often do I instead think to fall back on the Holy Spirit?

I am currently just beginning an audio book called Discerning The Voice Of God by Pricilla Shirer (I don’t do so well with actual reading), and at the very beginning she talks about having discipline to spend time with God; Not just 10-30 minutes to carve out to read the Bible or our current study, “putting in our scheduled time”, but actually spending precious time with HIM; speaking, then listening, Opening your heart and mind to Him without bringing our pre-conceived ideas to the table of what we think we want to hear or our expectations.

Even on the hard days when I’m in a haze and not doing well with my pills or my diet, can I even just on a spiritual level deeper than words just lean on Him?

I can’t on my own strength, but I can ask Him for help and keep asking and step out into obedience again, and again, and again until that obedience becomes habit.

I pray that for all of us in our struggles. When all the frivolities that life has to offer are stripped away we become deeper people. This is a blessing that comes along with trials, so I hope we can use this “crutch” to the best of our abilities and then let God do the rest. If we fail (and we will) I also pray we don’t linger there (God doesn’t), I pray we treat every day as a restart, another step, and we keep pressing on.

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