Although I have posted about it on Facebook, I have not blogged about the insomnia I have been experiencing the last several weeks. Now I have experienced insomnia in different levels my entire life, and what I would consider a good night sleep would be waking up a minimum of 2 to 3 times and being able to fall back to sleep without great difficulty and maybe getting around eight hours. But through this chronic illness journey I have definitely gone through periods of time where the insomnia has been much worse. During my initial two years of Lyme treatment after being diagnosed I was put on Ambien by my LLM.D. That drug gave me the best sleep of my entire life, but if it’s not meant for long-term use and it was absolutely excruciating weaning myself off of it.
So during the different phases of treatment over the last several years my insomnia ebbs and flows in severity. The last couple weeks with re-entering a brain detox protocol along with a liver protocol, its been worse again and I have been averaging 5 1/2 to 6 1/2 hours a night. Fast forward to last night when I decided to really up the sleeping aids to help me get a decent nights sleep being that I do not have to work on Wednesdays. So along with my usual nightly protocol (GABA, L-Theanine, Cannabis Oil) I added Melatonin (which I don’t take regularly for several reasons), magnesium, and a big dose of Benadryl. Well I got the most sleep I’ve had in weeks, but was so hung over today I could barely get myself up off of the floor until 1p.m. It was actually hard to hold my head up and even to breathe for a while. Ahh the trade offs. For those of you that may kindly suggest other sleep aids to me, I want to say I have probably tried them, And the ones I don’t use I don’t use for a reason; either side effects or they stay in my body so long that I am horribly hung over for days.
Anyway at 1 PM I was finally able to get myself out of the house and go to Les Schwab to get my tires checked And rotated, which I had been putting off for weeks since my tire lights had been on. I had them do a check of the rest of the car while I was there and not too much to my surprise my car is in need of about $1400 worth of work being that it is a 2008 and it is just one of those things. 🤑😫 #stress #financialworries
I also had a follow up today that was scheduled last minute with my doctor in Anacortes to try and address the autoimmune flare up that has been going on the last several days. I mean seriously, should a very tiny tub of organic hummus cause searing burning pain, inflammation and misery for days? I don’t think so. Thankfully my doctor does not think so too and he still working away at getting the autoimmune overreactivity under control. Along with the protocol he already has me on, he now put me on a Chinese herbal blend to help with shallow breathing and to increase circulation and blood pressure. (Because I am a pretty low, shallow person naturally 😉).
So now at the end of my day I’m sitting in a detox bath and mentally prepping myself to go to work tomorrow. My mind is still heavy with thinking about the negativity online and all the verbal attacks and untruths going on on the internet; in the health community and just the world in general. I was questioning how can someone stand up for truth and be a peacemaker at the same time avoiding getting into heated arguments? The internet is rife with untruths being spread like wildfire, misunderstandings, rash judgements, hard hearts and closed ears. It crossed my mind that Jesus is the only one to ever have done that perfectly; been a truth teller and a peacekeeper…. and they still killed him!
It is Amazing how so much is taken for granted to be true without actually fact checking, and other things are so blown out of proportion that they become untruths. (The Pharisees adding hundreds of their own “truths” and laws to scripture anyone?) (bueller?)
Being an advocate for absolute truth and an advocate for the chronic illness community, I think it is a really hard line when you are attacked. All I Can say is that I pray for wisdom and how to speak truth and kindness and not to waste my time on those whose ears are closed and whose mouths are open and spewing flames.
So, this is not one of those big advocacy posts to get a point across, or to share something deeply significant about the chronic illness journey, it is one of my more boring and quiet days where I just felt like blogging a little. Blessings to you all 💚 ~Jennifer