I’m Literally Sick and Tired Of Running Out Of Spoons

Most *Lymies at this point will know about The Spoon Theory, so when I say I keep running out of spoons you will know what I mean.

I am frustrated because I have been going through a cycle the last couple months where I have fewer spoons to use (I’m short of a whole set right now). Again as many *Lymies also know  you go through good and bad cycles that can last for months, and what is FRUSTRATING is that you don’t know why!

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You can drive yourself crazy trying to analyze every little thing you eat and do that brings you up or brings you down, and sometimes you just don’t know. 

all that said I had a pretty good weekend; I DID stuff. Stuff with people! And it felt really good. But today I am feeling overtaxed and that I need a day of rest after doing too much; you know, gotta recoup from being “normal”.

It stinks because I have been missing my Monday night Bible study for weeks, and I miss the people desperately and I need the spiritual connection. 

I could spend a few hundred words here trying to dissect why I have been in a slump, and people will inevitably ask “have you tried this or that?”; all I can say is that I probably have the best care practitioners I could possibly have and I have gotten over a lot of stuff with their help and expertise, I will keep trusting I will find answers for the rest. So You Know Someone With Lyme

*at this point I know I have gotten a lot of the Borrelia and coinfections under control, but there is also a lot of other stuff going on in my body (see past posts). So it is speculative what’s going on internally right now 😛 

Anyway, it all comes back to balance and having faith that someday (hopefully soon) I can do stuff, stuff with people and not have to pay for it. 

Health and Needs Update

It has been a little while since I have updated this site. It has been a really rough couple months and I have been pretty down physically. It is really hard to describe what it feels like when things get bad like I’ve been experiencing, because it’s not as simple as “I don’t feel well”; my sense of reality gets really screwed and I don’t feel myself at all. A lot of what makes me “me” sort of falls away. I think it might be brain inflammation because I know that I get brain inflammation when the rest of my body is inflamed. I have been doing my best to fight through it, but it’s been rough.

The great news is I have felt a shift in my body for the better the last several days. This is another thing I can’t quite describe because it’s nothing I’m doing differently, it’s just a shift that feels as if someone has been pinning you against the ground and then finally lets you up. 
The main reason I started this page (Youcaring)  is because I’ve been struggling financially due to being unable to work full time and having expenses and bills that are beyond me. I still have a lot of needs, but I am hopeful that I will be able to start doing more soon. 

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