So much has changed since exactly one year ago;
I am not hopeless
I am not depressed
I am not mostly bedridden
I have a job
The “life” is coming back into my life
So much has happened this year internally and externally.
I must say that for the first time in about a decade I am spending the 31st not lamenting being a year older and another year gone, but instead having so much hope for this next year and what it will bring.
I can see how far God has taken me as a person, how much I have grown. I am stronger and have more faith, I am wiser, I have learned I am an overcomer, and in refinement and trials He has taken a fragile scared weak little girl and made her something entirely different.
Then of course there is the years of illness and disease…. But I just really don’t feel like focusing on that with recovery on the horizon.
You see for the first time (maybe ever) I want to have a to do list for next year believing that God will complete the restoration of my body.
I want to spend a lot more time in study and prayer
I want to bike 40 miles
I want to go to Disneyworld
I want to go to a shooting range with my sis
I want to get my body back to its optimum weight and enjoy being active again
I want to begin the relationship with the love of my life
I want to have awesome plans for every major holiday
I want to get a passport and have some stamps in it
I want to go zip lining
I want to see fireworks from a boat
I want to spend a lot more time with the amazing friends in my life
I want to run 5 miles
I want to try archery
And for all the other things I can’t think of I at the moment I will just say whatever I do I want to LIVE