A Bad Week To Live In My Body


Last week was a decent week, I had a little more energy and mental clarity and my inflammation was down a bit. Contrast to this week where coming out of a weekend experiencing some of the worst fatigue I have had in 6 months, and almost literally doing nothing but sleep…..was pretty terrible. Beginning Monday with starting a bad…um “girl” time, and leading into Tuesday when my digestive system just pretty much stopped up and shut down, followed by my kidneys (bladder?) deciding to just stop functioning for a day (all the while drinking my normal amount of fluid), my body got completely toxic, water retention was and still is intense, and the body pain that has been a little lower the past few weeks is now burning fire through my joints and muscles. I am not sure why I did such a complete 180 in a matter of days. Such is Lyme, temperamental little scum…

   I am only hoping, praying that I can crawl back out of this to physical and mental sanity.

Oh, and my liver is angry too


Lessons from Illness #1–My Identity is in Christ

This is too good not reblog. Well spoken.

Lyme Light Fight

One of the first lessons I learned from being chronically ill is that my identity is in Christ.  When I first became ill, it was so sudden and so severe that I found myself unable to go out much at all and unable to do much at all.  If it required moving from my bed, it wasn’t going to happen on most days. 

Exhausted and in tremendous pain, I remember wondering who I was.  I had been stripped of all that I defined myself as; the bible study go-er, the hard worker, the studious student, the serve-er in the nursery, etc.  I didn’t know who I was anymore, what a dark place I was in!

Often times at night, when I couldn’t sleep I would lie awake and cry out to God.  Sometimes I felt like my prayers just weren’t heard, that the ceiling had somehow blocked them from reaching…

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Weekend Crash


I took a nap both Friday and Saturday. If you do not know me than this is unremarkable, but those of you that do would probably call me a liar right now. I take maybe one nap a year, simply because even when I’m exhausted sleep doesn’t come easily, not even at night. I don’t know what’s going on with my body right now, but Friday after my afternoon doctor appointment I simply crashed and slept for three hours. This messed up my schedule a little bit because I woke up at 9:30 at night, and went back to sleep at 2am. The next day I had another appointment in the early afternoon, came home and crashed again sleeping for an hour. Went to bed last night at 11:30, and I woke up this morning to find I had slept for 11 hours! Goodness, I cannot even remember the last time I have slept so much. I have been pretty fatigued, I am just hoping that all this rest is being used to fight illness and will be restorative.

A Disection Of A Herx Reaction, And Why Lyme Treatment Makes You Feel Worse

When I began Lyme treatment I was told that I could feel worse for a while, but I was in no way prepared for what was going to happen to my body. Yesterday I shared a very comprehensive article on what to expect mentally and physically when going through Lyme treatment. Today I am sharing an article on Endotoxins and the Herx reaction when being treated for Lyme. I love the science on why I (we) go through a mini hell. I am pasting the complete article below, and also including the link to the original website beneath to give them full credit:

Endo meaning “Internal” or “inside” – Toxin meaning “poison”

The reason the herxheimer reaction exists

You know what a herxheimer reaction is, and how to deal with one through different detox methods, but do you know the actual culprit directly responsible for the symptoms that manifest as a herx?  Introducing the endotoxin.  The toxin we all know the spirochete releases in our bodies once they’ve been killed, or in more scientific terms, lysed (i.e., the destruction of the bacterial cell wall).  To understand what an endotoxin is and how it operates with the spirochete it belongs to, let’s take a vague look at the structural anatomy of a spirochete.

The bacteria responsible for Lyme Disease is a spirochete.  It’s granted this name due to its spiral shape and the “cork screw” type of fashion it moves in.  What powers this movement is the endoflagella; endo meaning “internal” or “inside” and Flagella meaning “whip”.

The endoflagella allows the spirochete to move quite fast on a microscopic level.  In fact, it moves at roughly 0.00011mph or 60 cell length per second.  To put that into perspective, a cheetah moves at around 68mph, or 25 body lengths a second.  If a spirochete was the size of a cheetah, the spirochete would be able to move more than twice as fast as the cheetah.

As we reduce our perspective of the spirochete even more, we can see the different layers it’s composed of and the location of its components.  The endoflagella which powers the spirochete’s movement is located between the outer member and the peptidoglycan layer.

What also comes into view is the lipopolysaccharides, located in the outer member of the spirochete.  This is where our culprit, the endotoxin is found.  Lipopolysaccharides not only help preserve the integrity of the spirochete’s cell wall, which is crucial to prevent death, but even protect the outer membrane from chemical attacks.

Conventional and herbal antibiotics kill the spirochete by inhibiting its ability to synthesize their cell walls and other metabolic processes to sustain itself.  As the spirochete loses its ability to synthesize its cell wall, autolysis (i.e., rupturing or exploding of the cell wall) occurs.  

Fragments of the cell wall that contain the once concealed Lipid A (endotoxin), are then released into circulation of the blood stream.  Their exposed presence causes a massive inflammatory response, also known as a herxheimer reaction.

The lipopolysaccharide consists of 3 main parts:

  • Antigen-O – Is the outer most exposed component of the lipopolysaccharide.  As a result, it is a target for the antibodies of the immune system.
  • The Core – Attaches directly to Lipid A and Antigen-O.
  • Lipid A (Endotoxin) – Is the only non-exposed part of the lipopolysaccharide as it anchors it into the outer member of the spirochete.  Lipid A is the endotoxin.
  • What happens when the endotoxins are in the bloodstream?

    As the endotoxin passes through the blood stream, it binds with lipopolysaccharide-binding proteins that guide it to CD14 cells, an immune system receptor cell.  CD14 receptor cells are designed specifically for the detection of endotoxins, and can only bind with them if the lipopolysaccharide-binding protein has already.  Once CD14 has engaged with the endotoxin in the blood, it then transfers it to another protein known as MD2.  MD2 then associates with another immune receptor known as TLR4.  TLR4’s engagement with the endotoxin then causes the production of cytokines and nitric acid (i.e., inflammation) by signaling macrophage and endothelial cells to release them.

  • What happens next?

    Depending on how massive of a die off a person has (i.e., the quantity of endotoxins flowing through the blood stream) will determine different outcomes.  A reasonable die off reaction will eventually be brought under control by the immune system time and time again.  However, a severe die off reaction can truly cripple the body, and even cause endotoxic shock (i.e., death).  The larger the amount of endotoxins in the blood, the larger and more pronounced the inflammatory response.  As part of the inflammatory response, it’s the job of cytokines and nitric acid to expand the blood vessels in order to allow more blood to reach areas of infection or injury.  If the amount of endotoxins in the blood is too great, the inflammatory response will be as well, and as a result, vasodilation (i.e., widening of blood vessels) will become too pronounced and result in hypotension (i.e., extremely low blood pressure).  Low blood pressure will not allow oxygen rich blood to appropriately circulate through tissue and organs, resulting in hypoxia (i.e., insufficient oxygen supply in the blood) and organ failure.


    This is why it’s extremely important to be conscious of how you feel after administering a treatment protocol, or increasing your dosage for Lyme Disease.  Feeling worse is normal, but do so with reason.  If you notice the dosage level you’ve consumed has manifested a herxheimer reaction that is completely unbearable and intolerable, either drop your dosage back to a more tolerable level, or refrain from continuing your treatment protocol for at least 3 days (consult with your doctor).  This will allow your body to catch up in removing endotoxins from the body, and you can help it through detoxification methods and by reducing inflammation.  When you feel your herxheimer reaction has subsided, slowly begin your treatment protocol again, and slowly build back up to the dosage you last knew you could tolerate.

  • http://www.tiredoflyme.com/endotoxins-and-lyme-disease.html#.UZpeIJzeaSo

This Is The Most ACCURATE And AMAZING Article!!! Must Read

ImageIf you, or anyone you know is going through Lyme disease treatment this article is a must read. I wish I had discovered this before I began treatment, because I was unprepared for what was to come. This is the best written, most accurate article I have read on what treatment is, how it effects you, and the stages both physical and mental. Please show your support in Lyme Awareness month by reading, whether you know me well or not.