Sometimes when going through the hardest times my emotions bleed through words…
The world is so far away, so distant as it laughs at me with it’s colors and lights
It has always been so far away, the fullness of life has never been real for me
What if life never happens?
What if I spend my days waiting for a beginning that never comes?
What if I am never free?
It would seem I am a world apart, there is a void between it and me
It would seem that my path is different than most
It would seem perhaps I am set apart for Thee
The anguish must come to an end, because I can bear no more
The burden of pain and loneliness and disappointment has broken me
Have I come to expect too much from life?
Am I wrong to long for my hopes and dreams?
Perhaps I have sought wrongly?
It would seem I am so far apart, my existence is not what it ought to be
It would seem that life has passed me by
It would seem instead I am set apart for Thee
I need to see with different eyes;
As the haze lifts, instead of a prison cell, I see I am in His hiding place
I have been hidden from the horror of the dawn so long,
Lest if shed light on the truth of my empty wasted years…
And reveal the cracks in my skin, and the hollow echo of what could have been
Maybe I should let the sun hit my face and warm my skin?
Maybe He has been waiting for me?
It would seem that He has prepared a different path, a different journey
It would seem perhaps I am not apart, but set apart for Thee